A DVR kind of life

I often wish that life was more like my DVR. Ya know, like wouldn’t it be great to rewind and relive certain parts of your life? And wouldn’t it be great to hit the pause button or the extreme slow motion button to hold on and cherish the moments that seem to be going by to fast? But then there is also the fast forward and extreme fast forward button. I admit there are many times I think I’d be likely to fast forward through the rough spots. I’ve been thinking about this DVR concept a lot lately. Kind of like the movie, Click.

This weekend I had a chance to meet up with an old buddy of mine from back in day, Bruce. Bruce and I were pals that did lots of stuff together with our group of friends. We chatted and I got to met his adorable family and go down memory lane with him for a bit. As I was driving home, I couldn’t help but think of all the fun we had and all the crazy things we did too. I’m not sure there was a resort in Scottsdale that we didn’t at one time or the other sneak into to go pool hopping. Oh the good old days. I got to thinking about this “rewind” concept. We chatted about people I hadn’t even thought of for 15 years! While most of the memories were great and I had fun reliving them, a few of the memories got me thinking about how I should have been better. I should have chosen better. I should have not treated others so poorly. I should have been a better example, darn it! Then my mind shifted to a talk I read a few months back by Elder Holland. Who in my opinion is a rock star among the apostles, is that bad to say? A talk given at BYU last year, called Remember Lot’s Wife. Love this talk!  I started thinking, am I being like Lot’s wife. Am I longing to go back, relive, redo or stay in the past? Sometimes, yeah. I think Satan has a way of getting into our thoughts and glamorize the past. I don’t have a great memory AT ALL, but all my memories were great! How does that happen? Maybe it just happens to me.

I’m currently in need of the pause/slow motion button. Time is going by way to fast. I have a teenager and my baby, that is not so much a baby, turns 7 in a few weeks! This time in life is so fun. So busy, but so fun! I love having kids that are in a way, independent. We are officially out of “baby” mode and into a totally different phase in life. I love it. I really, really love it! But boy how I long to hold onto my kids at this stage for longer!

That fast forward button is a button that as of late, I think about to often. I keep thinking, if we could only get past this rough spot or that rough spot we’d be better, happier. But I then was reminded in this last Conference that we learn the most in these rough spots while we are waiting for them to pass. And let me tell you what, I’ve learned a lot. I’m actually becoming a little thankful for the rough spots in a weird way. I’m not at all the same person I was a few years ago. Hopefully, more patient, more understanding, more compassionate and less judgmental, to name a few.

While the thought of having a life DVR is exciting to me, I guess I can only try to hold onto the good, learn from the past, stay present and be hopeful for the future. My kids were watching Back to the future 3 the other day. According to that movie we should in the year 2015 be able to time hop with all the new technology. I guess in the end I might get my wish. I’ll only have to wait just few more years to go back, go forward or stay put according to Doc Brown and Marty McFly!

Sorry for my rant, but if you endured my soap box confessional at least now enjoy this new pictures~